Annoying Facebook Girls

Soooo I used to have a friend that always seemed to need gratification from other people that she was a cool, popular, and happy person that had a lot of friends. With social networking, people are becoming more focused on who they appear to be instead of who they really are. I dom't know how many times I've read on girl's Facebook or Myspace pages that they're 'outgoing' and 'friendly' and 'love to meet new people' but are complete bitches in real life. The way I see it, the internet has become sort of like a mask that people use to portray themselves differently than they really are, more like the person they want to be tan working on how to actually acheive their goal.
But anyways, I got sidetracked there. I used to have a friend that every single time we would go out, even if just to McDonalds or whatever, she'd take 258,723,052,348,714 pictures and upload every single one to Facebook, working crappy editing with a few with bright colors and random shit like "Summer!" and "best friends!" and whatever. And with the ones that she looked crappy in, she'd tag herself, say she was ugly, the pointidly untag herself. What the heck?! Anyways, I don't try and understand the workings of these girls. I would deactivate my Facebook if it weren't for all of the cosplay pictures and hot single lesbians I want to stalk. ...what? >.>

Anyways~ You know what's delicious? Take a piece of bread and toast it, give it a good layer of grape jam and slap a slice of provolone cheese on top, eating it open face. Delicious. ^^

K-Pop Sunday

I'm a super super super huuuuge K-Pop fan. I've been a super huge fan of SuJu, 2NE1, BigBang, and SNSD for about a year, but recently got really into f(x). SHINee latched onto me along the way, and I've been pretty partial to BoA and SS501. But this week I finally found myself getting a new look at TVXQ. Holy crap, they lost a lot of members... the last I saw them was their infamous "Mirotic" video, and now they've dwindled down to just two members. :/ But regardless, they're still pumping out some pretty nice stuff. O.O

 Like this, a newer song that was released in January. At first I was like "Erm.... I dunno about this." It just looked like another drowning group that was trying way too hard to have a certain image, but at first I thought they just lost sight of who their demographic was. But now that I've watched it again, I /really/ like it. :O The song is rather catchy with a certain amount of edge, but it does take a while for it to grow on you. The way I see it, never disregard a music group after watching their videos once or twice. You might find yourself changing your mind.

THIS however, I fell in love with right away. x3 it's sooooo... goooood. @_@ The song pulled me in right away, and the dancing is awesome. It just added to the boy band orgasm that I was having. Siwooooon~! Heeeenry~! Why are you so gorgeous~? T.T Hehe. x3 Oh, but the singing in this is quite awesome. Yes yes yes, I know some of it is autotuned. But really, what isn't these days? At least Zhou Mi can still hit those killer notes like a pro. ^^ I'm proud of you, son.

Ugh... WHY f(x), WHY? T.T I really really don't like this. And the teaser just looks ridiculous. And this isn't even their song! Monrose did this 4 years ago. :/ It just seems way too cutesy for them. Like Danger was pretty Asian-esque, but this is just kind of pushing it. [Although Amber looks totally foxy still and regardless I would still boink her in a secondwhaaaat? >.>] Ah well, with luck once the full MV comes out I hope it grows on me. :/

Yaaay for K-Pop~!

Brave Cosplayer, Fighting the Heat

I've pretty much been alone most of the week, save a couple visits from friends. But sis #1 is at camp, sis #2 is at marching band, and my two parents are at work. it wouldn't be so bad, you know? I could go somewhere and not have to tell anyone, go to a movie that /I/ want, go meet up with friends, but alas, no. My sister took the Buick, so all I've got is my Schwinn. T.T Good exercise, at least...

So today I went to work, and while I was cheerful, it seemed like everyone around me was rather melancholy... then I realized how much Janessa and Kayla must hate it when I get depressed. D: When I'm that way, I just take orders in a quiet voice and make pizzas with my head down, not even trying to make conversation. She was just a little un-talkative, and I wanted to shoot myself. Ooooh goodness, reality check, much? >.< Well I'm trying out this new... erm... "program" to relieve my mood swings [which really involves just watching what I eat, exercising a little more, and other good-for-you shit] and hopefully I'll be less annoying to my poor co-workers. :/

Well on a happier note, I just got done filming a Denmark video that I have been putting off for /ages./ Or at least it feels like ages... I dunno, Tik Tok Nordic Style has gotten about 6,000 views by now, it certainly feels that way. Well I must say that Den is pretty hot, but that costume is fucking. HOT. :O Although it makes sense, a winter coat over a long sleeved button down in 70 degree temperature....

See now I'm purposefully trying to not look at the keyboard when I type, via an unspoken challenge from Kayla. It's proving to be quite a challenge... But if she can do it, so can I! >:D Mwa-ha-ha-ha-ha.

So this next week I have to do my best to find time to film a Renge music video for NYAH.... ugh. I don like that wig when it's this hot... T.T But I guess I have no choice! Well my videos have done processing, so until then! ^^

That'll

Today there wasn't a whole bunch on my mind, the usual fluff and dust that's been blowing around for a while. I'm not saying my mind is empty, just that there's not a terribly important amount of stuff in its space. The quarter is winding down and my mind should be preoccupied with finals, vocab, assignments, and other bits and pieces of useless information. But I'm just not feeling it these past few weeks.

I kind of feel the same as Lev. I was watching his new 'Tales of Mere Existence" episode and he said that he was in an artist's rut, and the one thing that he used to get himself out of the rut was to just draw a whole bunch of really random things and hope that somehow the ideas will come together to actually pull him out of the rut. So here I go...

I cut all of my hair cut the other week. I like it now, it's an odd cross between Arthur Kirkland and Justin Bieber. I certainly like one more than the other, but that's how it's turning out to be. I really like it, but it certainly irks me that almost everyone sees me and immediately assumes that I'm a lesbian. Why does having short have to make me attracted to other girls? it just really bugs me how severely people can judge. Now, no one can say that they don't judge at all. You see a Latino and most of you would assume that they speak Spanish. You see someone wearing a Packers T-Shirt you assume that they don't like the Vikings. You see two women walking down the street holding hands you'd assume that they are lesbians. You're not going to think "Oh, maybe they're just friends" 97% of you will think that they are lesbians.

I'm not saying that I don't judge people at all, I just don't see someone on the surface and assume a huge character trait of them.  

The other day in Mock Trial my friend Evan was talking about his job. He goes around to Weight watchers in our county and stacks boxes. He was telling me about how he hates all the fat ladies that stormed in after New Year's with their resolutions to lose weight and knocked him over. I laughed my ass off for a good 5 minutes. xD Harder than the time that Patrick colored a picture of a Peanut's character, labeled it Magnus (Evan's nickname), and labeled the newspaper Peppermint Patty was reading "porn"

I have received a nickname as well from my good "friends" at Mock Trial. There are two Emmas, and the other one is a lawyer so she's a bit more important then me. (I'm a timekeeper because I have to miss practices a lot) So everyone's always saying "Emma I need.... Emma when are you... Emma can you..." and it confuses me really bad. So one day I finally said "Okay, one of us needs a nickname" she said "Well do you have anyhing we can call you?" I thought for a moment, and said "Ruth! My middle name." She didn't hear me quit right, and said, "Okay Roof!" Because of a misunderstanding, my nickname is now Roof. :p

Yesterday I tried to make a narrative about my costume for NYAH, but it took me 7 takes and I never actually got anything done except for burn out another perfectly good battery and an hour of film that's quite useless. I've never been good with just improvising things that I need to say in front of a camera. I always forget what's next and I find myself just sitting there thinking while the camera is running and I stand there wasting 5 minutes of film on me standing there, thinking. I've always had poor reaction times when cameras are on. I feel almost bad for Ash when we were filming for the MOA video because I tried really hard to always know exactly what I was going to do next, and I don't think I did very well because of it...

Well at least that'll leave me something to work with, then.

Apparently that'll isn't a word...

A Cell Phone is Now a Weapon of War?

Okay, so I'm not a bad person. But in this certain girl world, saying one thing out of line could get you majorly $#&%^*@. Especially with someone like... let's call her Rachael. Now Rachael doesn't quite understand that the world doesn't revolve around her feelings, wishes, and words. So when you accidentally get a hairline crack that one eggshell, she'll slaughter the whole chicken.

For one instance, I told some of my other "friends" that I thought it was silly and harsh that her religion forbade women to wear makeup or go to dances. She got V-E-R-Y offended by this and launched a tyrade. I managed to calm her down, and by her grace she forgave me. Oh goodie. But when Rachael's grandmother passes away of natural causes, you never, NEVER say anything beyond "poor baby." Because when you say, "She won't be sad forever. It was only her grandma, and she died peacefully so it's something she can move on from" Prepare for all hell to break loose, freeze over, and come back to beat the crap out of you.

That's where this little nifty invention like a cell phone comes in. Sure, they're a lifesaver when you're in a car crash or kidnapped. But it is a full blown weapon of war when it's used in an anything-goes bitch fight. Text messages, calls, it never ended. To them I was a heartless, backstabbing, bitch of a person. Also a druggie freak because once I accidentally got mildly high off of some paint when I was a painting (forgot to open the garage door) and because I cosplayed. Also, and emo psycho because once in 7th grade I was in a phase and I slit my wrists shallowly just to see what it was like. (Only lasted like 2 months...) and I tried it only once more after my Uncle died. (Reminded me too much of what happened before, so I stopped immedietly) So basically, all I ever said to them was thrown right back into my face.

Now, I was in a perfect position to do the same. Now one of the girls that was calling me all these things (let's call her Nikki) did full blown drugs and lost her virginity in 9th grade to some random guy. But I was so headstrong to NOT be the person that they were accusing me of being that I did not bring up anything. I did not mention any of the hundreds of secrets that they had entrusted in me the whole time we had been friends. Not. One. Even while my phone is still buzzing and humming like mad, I refuse to be like them.

So here's a good moral code when in a fight: Don't say or do anything that they want you to do. I knew that she was just provoking me so I'll say something she can smash in my face later. Also, when in a text fight, they WANT you to respond. If you don't it just makes them angry and then they have nothing to work off of.

Also, sometimes fights like these are a good thing. It seperates out your real friends out with the ones that are secretly waiting to sink the dagger into your unsuspecting flesh. I could tell by who was texting me telling me I was a freak and the ones who were posting on my Facebook telling me that I was talented and beautiful. :)

Just keep this in mind: The names that people call you are just showing the ignorance and frustration inside themselves, especially if it's through text messages. Don't respond, keep a cool head, and delete them as FB friends before they spam every single one of your posts and pictures! >.>

Anyways... good night all. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. :)    

Being naughty, but dreaming of something new.

It's actually kind of fun being someone who works fast. Because now while everyone is working hard on their cell projects typing away on their laptops, here I am blogging. As long as I am sneaky I can probably get away with it. xD

Although I do love how relaxed the school sytem is here in my school. We're all set to do our own work with complete trust that we'll do a god job and we'll work hard. Before you get all mad, I'm already done... But as i'm sitting here there is soft rok music floating about the air as people listen to their iPods or occasionally check their phones. Of course, there are a few that abuse such a relaxed atmosphere, but you're just going to have to come to terms with the fact that whenever there is something good there is going to be a long line of people just waiting to abuse it.

I was looking at my YouTube channel the other day and realized that I haven't added a video in over two months. :/ I feel like I have to add something soon since I've been so active in my other cosplay groups. I just need some inspiration of something that I can do..

So my mom finally told me what she thinks of my idea of studying abroad my Senior year in a French high school. I'm supposed to make a power point about the reasons why they should let me and present it to them. for sme reason, I thought this idea what actually really funny. What is this, a buisness meeting? Well I guess in a sense letting me study overseas is a buisness decision for our family. With a $12,000 tuition fee it's certainly a financial decision as well.

But I was really happy when I found out that the organization I was thinking of exchanging through has a club right here in my town! They're going to help me with fundraising, studying, and making all of the preperations for travelling abroad and being placed in a home and school. I just really hope my parents get how much this means t me and how bad I want to go...

What do you think? Have you ever studied abroad or thought about it?

Why So Anti-Gay...?

Woah, it's stormy outside. :O Only in Minnesota do we have a huge thunderstorm the day before a foot a snow. Oh well! I love it here nonetheless. ^_^

My Renge wig was orded a few weeks ago! I'm really excited to get it and actually start filming shorts for NYAHpro. The head director Ash (who plays Hani) has already got up a bunch of little shorts and the first episode of her "show". It's actually really cute! Check it out! :D

Now, onto a heavier topic. A couple days ago I got into a huge argument with some girls over my Facebook status. It read: 'Why so anti-gay? Jesus had two dads, and he was just fine." Funny, right? :p I sure thought it was. Just to let you know, I am a Christian. I go to church and stuff like a "good" christian, it's just I like to make strange statments like that.

Also, I didn't even think of it myself. I got it from a FailBlog post. I knew that people were going to get mad at me, and some weren't going to get it. But I could care less, it's something I usually do to make in-your-face comments on Facebook and such. Nothing too bad, just jabs at conservatives and anti-gay activists.

But these two girls were apparently VERY offended by that statement. (One was my age and one was still in middle school, mind you.) Without missing a beat, they started yelleing at me calling me disgusting, non-christian, etc. etc. I fought back, but later deleted the comments just to keep it as a joke. They then called me things like a coward and will face the wrath of God because I'm a sinner. I didn't really care, because my Uncle was gay and I am going to stand up for my family.

But what hit me hard was when they pulled the "good Christian card" on me. One of the girls sent me a message saying that she'd pray for me that one day I'd be saved. Saved? Saved from what? A mind that thinks of God as a guy with a sense of humor and a good heart? A life of trying to give people equal opportunities? If that's what I'm being "saved" from, then give your prayers to someone else.

I'll think what I want. And let everyone else know what those thoughts are. If this is what comes from doing that, then so be it.